A love that was never meant to be....

Just reached home not long ago..
Had PTM this morning..
Went Westmall with colleagues for Sushi..

Met him at around 5pm..
We went rounding around Singapore..
From West to East..
Traveled to Bt Timah -- Toa Payoh -- Bedok -- Changi Village..
Ha! We were crazy..

Silly us saw a couple carrying a tent..
Memories just flowed back..
When was the last time we went picnic?
He told me "Let's try that again...."
I was freaking happy.. Haa..
Yes, thats me... simple minded so easily contented.. Ha!!
U know what? I really miss those days...

It was not easy to maintain this r/s..
I was glad that we chose to try out..
Or should I say I chose to try out..

But is this worth trying?
I don't know...
Its simple..
I love this man and I just pray that somehow this r/s will work out...

But I can sense the difference..
The feeling is so different..
I still love him but I don't know his feeling for me..
I don't know what he wants anymore..
Or rather.. I never knew what he wants from the beginning...

He seemed to have changed...
He no longer hug me like he used to...
He looks so different from the past...
Perhaps he did not change at all..
Just that I have not put in enough effort to know him from the beginning...

His mindset, thinking, dreams and everything has changed..
I know I am no longer in those pictures...
It was my wishful thinking to include him in all my dreams...

Reality is so cruel...
I hate this life..
I hate reality..
Please let me stay in the fairyland or dreamland and never wake up..
Let me sleep forever.....
At least I can have a happily ever after life in my lala land..


Set him free?
Ya, it is time to set him free.....
Let him venture without any worries....
Don't look back anymore...
He will be fine..
He will be happy..
He will find his happiness.....

Goodnight!

Phew! Gonna start my jogging schedule soon..
Ya, maybe we will see each other on the track one day..
I will definitely run faster than u!! Haa.. =)