Stress..

The concert day is round the corner.. How I wish I can get it over and done with asap!! All of us are stress and tired because of this big event!! The next coming up event will be PTM right after concert which is next week.. I have yet to finish the Progress Report Books!! Argh! And follow by Orientation.. All falls on Saturday! My Goodness!! I am gonna skip class on this coming and next Saturday.. Can't skip class on Orientation so I have to rushed off to class straight after that else I will have to retake this module! So sad..

Stayed back on Tuesday to help out with the deco of stage..

The underwater world

Rainbow

Our stage looks fantastic right? Hehez.. All done by my wonderful and creative colleagues.. My only contribution was the stem of the sunflowers and putting up the deco.. Haa!! Our children were so fascinated by the deco and ended up not performing well.. Ha!!

Had full dress rehearsal yesterday.. It was freaking tiring.. Thank god mum came to help my class with the dressing up.. Phew! It went on smoothly and most of them commented that my kids did a good job! But I know they can do better than this!! Their singing was too soft, some of them forgotten their steps whereas some were fascinated by the deco that they kept staring at it! I am so worried that I will jump out of the chair and dance or scream at them on the actual day! Ha... Maybe my expectations were too high for a group of 3 years old children..

Whatever it is.. We have been practicing this for months for this big event of the year and I just hope everything will turn out well.. Parents will be glad and give praises.. The children will enjoy themselves and not freak out on the stage.. =)

I have prepared goodies bag for each of them to bring home after the concert.. As a reward to them!! Heeheez.. God Bless!! =)

Shadow...

Just read Pek's blog..

I like the following sentence that she wrote....

“A woman is like the shadow of the man. when they are around u, u felt irritated and wanted to be free from them...but when they're gone, no longer by your side, it is like a knife piercing your flesh"


Take few minutes to think about this... It's quite meaningful rite?


When u loss something....
You start to regret....
And eventually learn to cherish....

Those were the days...

Just reached home from Aunt's house warming..
Felt kinda awkward..
So scared that they will mention him or comfort me..

We had a long long girls talk as usual..
Bitched about relationships and SEX.. haa!!
Interesting....

Hmm..
I am trying hard to keep myself occupy with assignments, work etc..
I don't deny that I MISS HIM.. and...
I still love him..
I will still wonder what he is doing, where he is etc..
Sometimes I feel that I am a let down..
Cos tears will filled my eyes whenever I think of him..
Yes.. I know its just a matter of time..
Time will heal the wound..
Life still goes on...
But the feeling will still be there...
Somehow that tiny space in my heart is still reserved for him....
Alright, I know I am being silly again...
I have to move on no matter how tough the path is...

This photo was taken last year..
All of us were so happy back then..
But looking at it now...
Almost all have broken up...
Its so sad.. Why did this happen?
Is it a curse? Is god playing trick on us?

Whatever it is...
I pray that this curse will stop by now..
Let it end here... Its enough..
I wish those who are still together happiness... Jiayou!!


Alright.. Gonna start my assignment now!!
Goodnight!! =)

男人女人

A meaningful song introduced by him....


女:爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着
谁能出现

男:伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会
狠心对谁

女:男人男人
多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真
让我不必再心疼

男:女人女人
我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生
来换你的快乐一生

女:爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着
谁能出现

男:伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈

合:我却还是学不会
狠心对谁

女:男人男人
多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真
让我不必再心疼

男:女人女人
我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生
来换你的快乐一生

女:男人男人
多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真
让我不必再心疼

男:女人女人
我答应做个好人

合:不会再让我(你)心疼
一等再等
你就是我等的那个人

男:男人男人
女:女人女人
合:多么希望你是对的人

Those were the days....

Ha! Imagine I just ended my previous entry 20 minutes ago...
And here I am starting with another entry.. lolx!!

I just browsed thru the entries at kunniqinwa..
All the memories just flowed back...
The smiles, face, actions etc........
I was smiling as I looked at the photo..

Silly girl...

Alright..
I have a lot more things to do..
Assignments and Progress Report Books..

Hmm..
What shall I do on a Saturday night?
Movie? Jog?

25 October 2008

Time checked now is 1440 hrs..
Its a boring Saturday afternoon....
I just came back from class about an hour ago..
The weather is soooooo freaking hot....
Causing my mood and energy levels to be yucky low as well...

Oh God.. Please pour down the rain...
I love to see raindrops falling from the sky..
I love to hear the sound of the raindrops..
I want to play in the rain.. Ha!

Started off my morning with a super duper uber sweet sms yesterday..
Hoping for a change...
Almost a month since I was so sweet...
I miss it though it may seemed nothing special..

I continued to be sweet and loving....
Hmm.. and eventually in return, I was rewarded with the same sms..
It melted my heart...
I miss it and was yearning for more... Ha!

Caught Ch8 大城情事 @ 7pm..
I love this show.. so meaningful...
I love Priscelia Chan's role as Yu Han...

She said something like this..
"Women are too confident of themselves.. They usually think that they are able to change the man they love after marriage.. Ha! But do you know that it takes great effort and time to change a person? And why do you hope that he will change? Because you love him.. Women are simply so foolish.."

Her bro-in-law actually replied her...
"Its not because women are foolish... Its because men are heartless... If you love her, you won't mind the change at all..."

Ha.. How true? I don't know....


Met up with him @ around 8 plus after the show..
Headed to Alexandra Village for my favourite Pork Ribs Noodle..
Yum! Yum! I love it but don't why I did not finish it..
Ha! It was my first time having leftover..
He found it surprise too..

Planned to catch either 'Saw V' or 'The Coffin'..
So headed to Vivo after dinner..
Silly us happily wasted our time in Giant without realizing the time..
Rushed to the ticketing counter only to realize that it was selling fast left the first few rows..
So sad... When can I catch both movies?
Anyone interested?
Anyway, we caught 'REC' instead..
Haa.. It was a Spanish horror movie..
I will strongly recommend those horror movie lovers to catch it!!
Oh ya, saw 'Quarantine' poster.. think its the English version of 'REC'
Go for Quarantine if you don't want to waste time chasing after the subtitles..

Ended our date with argument and headed home instead..
Don't ask me who is at fault...

Just when I was being sweet loving, yearning for more......

God.. Please let me sleep forever..
I don't want to wake up to reality..

Bitter sweet love....

Updates!

I have no idea where and how to start this entry..

Give me some time to sort out my thoughts..

Met up with him on 11 Oct night to do these.. Did my mani and pedicure @ PS earlier in the afternoon so not wanting to destroy my nails, I did not help much.. Anyway, the trophies for the FBT'08 look nice and cute right? Hmm.. took some pics with him but all look awful cos of my puffy eyes.. Ha!

Met him on my birthday..

Yummy Choco Fudge Cake from Choc.a.Bloc






Chill out with Elin and Liting last Sat @ Fashion Bar and headed to Arena after that..

Thanks gals.. It was fun! =)

I hope to address this entry to all my friends and cousins who has been supporting me all these while..

Thanks for accompanying me these few days.. Hugs! *heart u*

But I would like to clarify that we ended it because of some problems in our relationship and not because there was no love between us.. Perhaps the feeling is not that strong anymore? Yes, 10 years is very long cos we started at the age of 16 (shocked hor?) and its like wasting my youth on it.. But think about it.. Isn't it better than wasting my lifetime in a marriage? Is this a mature way of handling our relationship? Hmm.. I don't know.. All I know is that marriage is a lifetime issue.. We will have to solve our problems between us in order to go to the next stage of life happily.. Forcing each other into a marriage will definitely lead to unhappiness and quarrels.. I don't want to be fighting, crying or quarreling everyday in future.. I think no one in this world wants this as well.. Ha!

I must say he is a great guy.. He has really changed a lot.. Some of u agreed with this in the past too.. but maybe because of our breakup you think that he's a jerk or whatsoever but frankly speaking he is not.. This is LIFE.. no point dragging on, holding back torturing each other when there's problems.. We can't predict the future.. who knows we might end up together again? Ha Ha! Right? Maybe by then we will live happily together?

So please don't blame him because he not totally at fault.. I'm partially at fault too... Remember this.. A relationship needs two person to work hard and maintain it.. It takes two to clap.. So when it falls, the blame should go to the two of them as well.. Agree?

And.. I am really getting along very well... God Bless.. =)